For sake of context please read Part 1. Thank you.
After receiving the computer’s message, I decided to defragment the hard drive to free up space so that I could load my programs and files on to the hard drive. After starting the deframentation process I discovered that the files — that I thought my friend would have removed before he loaded the operating system — were still on the hard drive. To my chagrin the files and folders that had been left on the computer’s hard drive could not be defragmented.
I then realized that I had no idea what might be in those files and folders, nor would I want to be held responsible for what was contained in those files and folders. At this point in time I felt like a deer caught in the head lights. As you might imagine I began to experience some anxiety – give my 3 previous nightmarish experiences with having to reload operating systems — as the obvious was becoming apparent. I was going to have to reformat and reload the operating system by myself.
Initially, I was a bit frustrated by my anxiety, but after I refocused my energy, I realized that I was going to have to reformat and reload the operating system.
When I accepted that I was going to have to reformat and then reload the operating system I took the next step. Consequently, several nights ago — around 10 pm — I put the Windows XP Professional disc into the DVD tray and rebooted my newer computer. As was suggested by my friends I followed the on screen promptings and my computer’s hard drive was reformatted. Once the hard drive was reformatted I began the process of loading the Windows XP operating system onto my hard drive.
The process was tedious and time consuming, but very satisfying — because after 7-8 hours I experienced the joy in knowing that I succeeded in overcoming my anxiety.
Since the time I have successfully loaded programs and files on to the computer’s hard drive and the computer is running marvelously. I am so glad that I took the risk to confront my anxiety. My experience has taught me that I can in fact successfully reformat and reload an operating system. Consequently I am no longer subject to the anxiety that once limited me.
My experience has empowered me to address other areas in my life that presently may seem to loom so large.
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